Im back at physio btw. Because Ive no strength in my right arm and am using it less I now have a sore neck !! Lovely neck and back massages here we come. But Im in a good happy place at the moment and that helps massively. Happiness, fun, laughter is definately key and helps overcome most things. Still cant believe its 6 months. Happy Days x

Its weird that someone I dont know but feel I do know is about to go through a
cancer removing operation tomorrow and I am with her every step of the way. I
can take myself back to that morning very easily. The sheer nerves and terror of
the whole operation and the length of it. Well Sheena, I hope you can remain
calmer than me. Alistair my anaethestist said I was "off my head" !! lol. It
helps they have a sense of humour. Your in good hands. Let me know how you're
doing. x

Its weird that someone I dont know but feel I do know is about to go through a cancer removing operation tomorrow and I am with her every step of the way. I can take myself back to that morning very easily. The sheer nerves and terror of the whole operation and the length of it. Well Sheena, I hope you can remain calmer than me. Alistair my anaethestist said I was "off my head" !! lol. It helps they have a sense of humour. Your in good hands. Let me know how you're doing. x

So 6 months today I had my Op! Couldnt believe it when Scott told me that! 6 months! Anyway celebrated with wee meal out and it was lovely. The time has flown by but I still stop to remember friends who are going through a different journey (with chemo / radiotherpay etc) and I thank my lucky stars. But cancer is still cancer and we all have to overcome it mentally.

Met Jane tonight at Edinburgh Corn Exchange's Pout Event. Mutual respect as she admired what I had done since being diagnosed But I admired her more for looking amazing after chemo, surgery to come (double boob removal) and then reconstruction next year) ! Nora!  I felt small. You know I LOVE meeting BC "victims". No two are the same but the majority of us survive and thats great news! Three cheers for us survivors which isnt celebrated enoug

So I had a bath with Kate last night and she was fascinated with my tatooing. It has faded a lot but I am due for a top up 1st October. I felt quite proud sitting in the bath ... have looked at it more and more and dont have those feelings of dread anymore. I think I have truly accepted my new body. I migh actually start shopping for proper bras now cos I am still in sports bras. Comfy but NOT attractive lol!

Separation. Cancer. House Sale.   It comes in threes lol! All very messy BUT I remain positive and optimistic. As a good friend text me earlier ... You are a Survivor!! With Scott behind u u wil make it. There are people worse off than me. I just need to look after myself and take my Tamoxifen for 5 years, get the all clear then I am normal! What is normal anyway?   xx

Ive had a birthday :)   My first birthday since having breast cancer. Just a normal day really BUT i had the most amazing cake for me and was meant to feel SO special I felt lucky to not be going through chemo. I am so eternally grateful for that one !! BUT I do have my own personal stuff going on which is causing stress which is making my mum nervous as she is convinced stress causes cancer ! x

Scottish Event of the Year Awards tonight. I was excited up until now but now its time to leave the house the butterflies have kicked in and I am SO nervous! Like REALLY nervous. So nervous I feel sick! Goodness knows what Ill be like when / if I win !! lol.   Anyway wish me luck - will report back later (well maybe tomorrow) !   Off to Radisson Blu we go.  Got the red dress looked oot and Scott has his kilt looked out. Wonder what Amanda and Susan will wear ? Wish us luck x