Im back at physio btw. Because Ive no strength in my right arm and am using it less I now have a sore neck !! Lovely neck and back massages here we come. But Im in a good happy place at the moment and that helps massively. Happiness, fun, laughter is definately key and helps overcome most things. Still cant believe its 6 months. Happy Days x
 
 
Its weird that someone I dont know but feel I do know is about to go through a
cancer removing operation tomorrow and I am with her every step of the way. I
can take myself back to that morning very easily. The sheer nerves and terror of
the whole operation and the length of it. Well Sheena, I hope you can remain
calmer than me. Alistair my anaethestist said I was "off my head" !! lol. It
helps they have a sense of humour. Your in good hands. Let me know how you're
doing. x
 
 
Its weird that someone I dont know but feel I do know is about to go through a cancer removing operation tomorrow and I am with her every step of the way. I can take myself back to that morning very easily. The sheer nerves and terror of the whole operation and the length of it. Well Sheena, I hope you can remain calmer than me. Alistair my anaethestist said I was "off my head" !! lol. It helps they have a sense of humour. Your in good hands. Let me know how you're doing. x
 
 
 
 
So 6 months today I had my Op! Couldnt believe it when Scott told me that! 6 months! Anyway celebrated with wee meal out and it was lovely. The time has flown by but I still stop to remember friends who are going through a different journey (with chemo / radiotherpay etc) and I thank my lucky stars. But cancer is still cancer and we all have to overcome it mentally.
 

Pout

14/9/2012

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Met Jane tonight at Edinburgh Corn Exchange's Pout Event. Mutual respect as she admired what I had done since being diagnosed But I admired her more for looking amazing after chemo, surgery to come (double boob removal) and then reconstruction next year) ! Nora!  I felt small. You know I LOVE meeting BC "victims". No two are the same but the majority of us survive and thats great news! Three cheers for us survivors which isnt celebrated enoug
 
 
So I had a bath with Kate last night and she was fascinated with my tatooing. It has faded a lot but I am due for a top up 1st October. I felt quite proud sitting in the bath ... have looked at it more and more and dont have those feelings of dread anymore. I think I have truly accepted my new body. I migh actually start shopping for proper bras now cos I am still in sports bras. Comfy but NOT attractive lol!
 
 
Separation. Cancer. House Sale.   It comes in threes lol! All very messy BUT I remain positive and optimistic. As a good friend text me earlier ... You are a Survivor!! With Scott behind u u wil make it. There are people worse off than me. I just need to look after myself and take my Tamoxifen for 5 years, get the all clear then I am normal! What is normal anyway?   xx
 

Ok

11/9/2012

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Ive had a birthday :)   My first birthday since having breast cancer. Just a normal day really BUT i had the most amazing cake for me and was meant to feel SO special I felt lucky to not be going through chemo. I am so eternally grateful for that one !! BUT I do have my own personal stuff going on which is causing stress which is making my mum nervous as she is convinced stress causes cancer ! x
 
 
Scottish Event of the Year Awards tonight. I was excited up until now but now its time to leave the house the butterflies have kicked in and I am SO nervous! Like REALLY nervous. So nervous I feel sick! Goodness knows what Ill be like when / if I win !! lol.   Anyway wish me luck - will report back later (well maybe tomorrow) !   Off to Radisson Blu we go.  Got the red dress looked oot and Scott has his kilt looked out. Wonder what Amanda and Susan will wear ? Wish us luck x