So now that I am home and the kettle is on ... my beautiful girls and I are going to get the popcorn on and watch Calendar Girls. I cant think of a better way to spend my Saturday night. Emma has been very clingy and quiet and I need to spend time with her. She is 12 and at that age where she is very aware but maybe doesnt have the courage to say what she needs to say! Tonight we are going to hold hands, watch the telly, cuddle in, laugh, probably cry but the most important thing is that we are together. I need that right now. Still cant believe what I am about to go through. (Shakes head). However I was chosen cos I'm stronger than I think and I am able to deal with it !