Went to Lee's exhibition today. What a lady! Honestly! To do all these bodycasts and hear all these different cancer stories ... that's quite a task. But she achieved it and has massive plans for a moving exhibition! Ive never been to an exhibition quite like it. Some who have not had reconstruction, some who have, some who had lumpectomy. Humbled to be part ot it! I love my body cast and so glad I did it in a moment of panic.

Attended an amazing worthy event this afternoon. Only the 2nd time I have been in a room with other Cancer sufferers. I got quite emotional. Hearing all their stories and this one particular beautiful woman who had BC 2 years ago now has secondary! Devastated for her and her family. That got me scared. Second time I have heard that. BUT I cant go on worrying about something that might not happen. I'll become a basket case. Praying tonight that her results on Wednesday are in her favour! x

Oh and a quick hello to the people who "spy" on me from a distance. Didnt want to miss you out.

Im back at physio btw. Because Ive no strength in my right arm and am using it less I now have a sore neck !! Lovely neck and back massages here we come. But Im in a good happy place at the moment and that helps massively. Happiness, fun, laughter is definately key and helps overcome most things. Still cant believe its 6 months. Happy Days x

Its weird that someone I dont know but feel I do know is about to go through a
cancer removing operation tomorrow and I am with her every step of the way. I
can take myself back to that morning very easily. The sheer nerves and terror of
the whole operation and the length of it. Well Sheena, I hope you can remain
calmer than me. Alistair my anaethestist said I was "off my head" !! lol. It
helps they have a sense of humour. Your in good hands. Let me know how you're
doing. x

Its weird that someone I dont know but feel I do know is about to go through a cancer removing operation tomorrow and I am with her every step of the way. I can take myself back to that morning very easily. The sheer nerves and terror of the whole operation and the length of it. Well Sheena, I hope you can remain calmer than me. Alistair my anaethestist said I was "off my head" !! lol. It helps they have a sense of humour. Your in good hands. Let me know how you're doing. x

So 6 months today I had my Op! Couldnt believe it when Scott told me that! 6 months! Anyway celebrated with wee meal out and it was lovely. The time has flown by but I still stop to remember friends who are going through a different journey (with chemo / radiotherpay etc) and I thank my lucky stars. But cancer is still cancer and we all have to overcome it mentally.

Met Jane tonight at Edinburgh Corn Exchange's Pout Event. Mutual respect as she admired what I had done since being diagnosed But I admired her more for looking amazing after chemo, surgery to come (double boob removal) and then reconstruction next year) ! Nora!  I felt small. You know I LOVE meeting BC "victims". No two are the same but the majority of us survive and thats great news! Three cheers for us survivors which isnt celebrated enoug

So I had a bath with Kate last night and she was fascinated with my tatooing. It has faded a lot but I am due for a top up 1st October. I felt quite proud sitting in the bath ... have looked at it more and more and dont have those feelings of dread anymore. I think I have truly accepted my new body. I migh actually start shopping for proper bras now cos I am still in sports bras. Comfy but NOT attractive lol!