So I gravitate to the PC. Just had a look at all the News Articles from me being diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Its quite overwhelming. It's nights like this (on my own in house) I actually cant believe what I have come through. I have said it before I think I can be emotionally numb. What a year huh. Never mind 2013 is so close. The girls and I have achieved in 2012 but 2013 is going to be the ultimate happy happy year. I hope you agree I deserve it. rosie x
So had my last tattooing done. Its a wee bit dark but I am sure it will fade (fingers crossed). I am getting quite nervous as the next appointment is next March for my mammogram on the boob thats left and to meet my surgeon for the final "well done and goodbye until next year". I think once I get the all clear from the other boob I will be able to relax. x
Just one thing whilst I am on. SO I am healing well and still lots I cant do BUT the most frustrating thing is sometimes I get a deep intense itch inside my reconstructed breast! My boob is numb yet its itchy! How does that work. It must be deep inside. Have you ever had an itch and cant get to it - well its torture! Running about as if I have ants in my pants ... or maybe they are in my boob! ha ha! Thats all. Off to check on girls. Its their bed time. Night ever
Ok folks its been a while but i thought i would just check in. Emma's book "Eek" has grown arms and legs and kept u, but the biggest thing was the abcess on her breast! My god what a mother's nightmare. Ofcourse I remained calm on the exterior but inside I was absolutely devastated that my baby was going through this. However...Emma is a strong wee character in times like this and she got through it with dignity and courage. No more please - not this year anyway. Thanks :) x
Cant believe how many changes are happening in my life in 2012. Every single thing that gives you stress is happening LOL! BUT ... I cant stress enough...with the right support you can achieve and get through anything. Thank you to Emma and Kate, Scott and my whole family for helping me through a very very difficult year all round. Today I helped the kids bake cakes and didnt think about stress once. Kids rule ! x
Emma was awarded an Outstanding Achievement Award at School for her writing anad fundraising. Such a proud mummy. SO happy for Emma. Achieving is good for confidence and all kids need confidence especially after when she has been through with my cancer. Onwards and upwards ... positive and happy! x
So more tattooing this week. Its hilarious when you go but before that I had to put the "kiddie magic cream on"! The plaster to go on top of it was quite a challenge and I ended up getting myself in a sticky back plastic mess lol! The poor nurse when I arrived - well she had a good giggle. Anyway tattooing looking AMAZING! SO pleased with it. Getting there ... very happy with it all x
Went to Lee's exhibition today. What a lady! Honestly! To do all these bodycasts and hear all these different cancer stories ... that's quite a task. But she achieved it and has massive plans for a moving exhibition! Ive never been to an exhibition quite like it. Some who have not had reconstruction, some who have, some who had lumpectomy. Humbled to be part ot it! I love my body cast and so glad I did it in a moment of panic.
Attended an amazing worthy event this afternoon. Only the 2nd time I have been in a room with other Cancer sufferers. I got quite emotional. Hearing all their stories and this one particular beautiful woman who had BC 2 years ago now has secondary! Devastated for her and her family. That got me scared. Second time I have heard that. BUT I cant go on worrying about something that might not happen. I'll become a basket case. Praying tonight that her results on Wednesday are in her favour! x
Oh and a quick hello to the people who "spy" on me from a distance. Didnt want to miss you out.